Anxiety Attack

Anxiety Attack - a cure?

For many years, I suffered from anxiety depression. I tried everything, from psychoanalysis to medications but nothing really worked. Some things helped for a little while to relief my anxiety, but eventually it would always come back.

One day I was feeling particularly down, I saw a friend coming towards me on the road. We said hello and he told me about somebody he met in the pub the night before. He said she was a very happy, radiant and relaxed person. I felt a little pang of jealousy because with my anxiety depression this was exactly the opposite of myself. He said that her secret was Vipassana meditation. I had never heard of this type of meditation, but my friend gave me the website address. He said it was a great way for treating anxiety so the same evening I was on the internet and had booked for a course.

The course was great and I felt better than I had felt for many years. But coming home into the stress of everyday life was a different matter. Soon my anxiety attacks were back again. I tried meditation but as soon as I closed my eyes all the problems of the day came flooding back to me so it was impossible to meditate. After many years of meditation and many courses and moving away from my old life, my anxiety depression has disappeared, but it has taken a long time and a lot of effort. I am certain however that my anxiety will never come back. Vipassana really is an excellent anxiety depression treatment method. But it comes with a cost of time and effort, not something that many people can afford.

Luckily, if it is just anxiety depression you wish to cure, then there are other methods. I wish I had known about them back then but I did not. Vipassana is a very involved spiritual path and although it helped me well, you need to be certain that this is the path you wish to travel. It has many more benefits than just curing anxiety and stress.

There are other methods which will help cure anxiety depression effectively. One especially I found very good and it is especially designed for people with a lot of stress in their lives, which is usually the cause of anxiety depression. So rest assured, there are effective methods to control stress and get rid of anxiety depression without going the path that I have gone. But if you wish to know more about Vipassana meditation, I will be happy to share my experiences with you.

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Anxiety Disorder

Anxiety Disorder - how Vipassana cured me.

Vipassana meditation changed my life completely and cured me from anxiety disorder, and that is no understatement. I am now a much happier and relaxed person, while before I was depressed, suicidal and very stressed. I had panic and anxiety attacks and really did not know what to do with myself. On top of that, I was ashamed of myself. This is not to say that you can only do Vipassana meditation when you are are wreck like that. You can do Vipassana even when you are already rather happy, and still find a lot of benefits. But then again, this post is about my personal story and not yours.

What has changed me is seeing the truth. I used to go out a lot, drink a lot and even use some soft-drugs like most people of my age. After Vipassana I realised I was just doing these things to be part of the group, to be accepted. I could not love or accept myself unless others did so. The drink and drugs was a way out of my misery. For a moment everything seemed ok and I did not need to worry any more. For a little while I did not feel the depression and anxiety. Now I don't need these things any more and I feel better than I every felt.

Unfortunately this also had some negative effects. I lost friends because I did not go out any more. They said I had become boring and not fun. But my real friends stayed and my relationship with them deepened. We had fun in other ways and they loved it as much as me. When they wanted to go to the pub, they went without me. When they wanted to spend time with me, they did. Slowly people began to accept but in the beginning it was hard to be constantly tugged to try and get you to fall back into your old ways.

The most difficult challenge has been my parents. Due to Vipassana I realised that what I had been doing all my life is to try and live up to their standards. They wanted me to be one way or the other, and I always tried to comply, failing miserably because it was just not me. And then they would pounce on me telling me I was a failure, etc. This in turn made me very depressed and suicidal. Sometimes I would get myself up and try again but to no avail.

Now you must know that I have an IQ of 160 and hold two masters degrees in Science and Business. So I don't think I'm so dumb that I cannot succeed. What I did not do very well though was to understand other people and how they operated. This is why I could never really succeed in what my parents wanted for me.

More in the next post I will tell you more about how meditation cured me from anxiety disorder.

Anxiety

Welcome to my anxiety disorder blog. I want to share with you my experiences with anxiety disorder and how I overcame it with meditation.